someone?

my heart beat pump so fast that i couldn't control it. i can barely hard to manage my tension and stress. i am kind of lost control actually inside my body, but yet my face motion just keep on maintain within one look. i don't know how can i do it, i don't know how to find my guts back. i'm too tiny to be seen. i don't know what am i troubling about. i think i need a talk. yes, i need a talk. someone? my heart keep beating like hell, as if i'm going to die once i go to sleep. it's a critical feeling, it's a horrible moment, it's suck when it's time for bed! i really hate night time, it made me like a criminal, a thief, a nobody, a coward zombie. i think i need a talk. yes! i really need a talk. someone? ...............

脑袋快要炸开的那一瞬间。

我没有地方可以去，我真的没有地方可以去！在夜半空中，我不想飞，我只想呐喊！很想呐喊！可以吗？真的可以吗？你们可以接受这么反常的我吗？我已经很控制我的情绪了，这还不够吗？我已经表明了，也不行吗？！那你们希望我怎么样？怎么样！流泪吗？已经流啦，心里面一直不停的在流着了。可以了吗？其实很简单。就让我一个人静静的待着，喝下一整桶的水，行吗。没有必要再跟我说话。我只怕我会承受不起。我只怕在你们面前流泪。
既然我们用这种方式相处了那么多年，就让它继续下去吧。没有必要在途中更改，不是吗。从新开始。多难啊。